4 years, 5 months.
Without any hesitation, I could and would give my life for you.
However, I believe there is nothing heroic or surprising about that statement whatsoever.
Instead, it’s simply common knowledge, I would assume; that a father would simply in a moment either risk his life or give his life if he saw his child in serious danger. Cue a relevant song:
The reason I recently gave this thought is because recently when we took our mini vacation to Pensacola, we walked out to the end of the long fishing pier at Casino Beach. Mommy and I took turns holding you up to the guard rail to let you see over into the water.
(We were all surprised to the see the man next to us catch a small shark; which he ultimately was required to throw back into the ocean.)
As we left the pier and walked back to the beach, you asked me this:
“Daddy, what would happen if another child’s daddy or mommy was holding them and they pretended like they were going to throw their child into the water, but then they really did, but they didn’t mean to?”
I was amazed at such a deep, hypothetical question from a 4 and a half year-old little boy.
My answer was this:
“They would do whatever it takes to get their child back. If it were you that fell in, I would immediately jump in after you.”
Granted, I’m not sure I would survive the hit of impact of the water (that pier is pretty high off of the water), or that the water would absolutely be deep enough to save my fall.
Either way, I would follow you, even to death. Cue another relevant song:
This reminds me of a scene on one of my favorite shows, Lost; during the final season one of the main characters gets trapped in a submarine, after a bomb explodes, causing water to rush in.
Spoiler alert! Even though Lost ended almost exactly 5 years ago:
Her legs are pinned down from the explosion, leaving her upper half out of the water, as her husband desperately tried to bend the steel bars in order to free her.
After several attempts, he realizes it’s impossible. Though he himself was free and could escape instead of drowning, he chooses to stay with his wife; dying with her in the flood.
It was one of the most touching moment in Lost for me.
But ultimately, it wasn’t heroic. You undoubtedly would die for the people you love the most; without hesitation.
So yes, it’s a dark thought to think about you falling in the water or that we would not spend many more decades together here on Earth.
I just want you to know- I can’t imagine living the rest of my life with you or Mommy. If I felt I was about to lose either of you, I would instantly throw my life in front whatever it was to try to prevent anything bad from happening to you two.
Not because I’m some great guy, but simply because you and Mommy are my life. What would life be without you?