When Covid happened a couple of years ago, I feel like it sort of put a damper on Halloween for the past couple of years since.
But this year, Halloween was back!
Last weekend, we actually went to a Halloween party at your friend’s house, and it wasn’t even related to anyone’s birthday. That’s like the first “non-birthday” party you have ever been to.
And for trick-or-treating, you and your brother used our Radio Flyer wagon to gather candy, as opposed to tradition Halloween buckets.
The result: The wagon was completely full of candy!
This past weekend our family visited Gentry Farm, as is our tradition. One of my favorite pictures I took while we were there is of you holding a pumpkin.
Once we got back to the house, I asked you what your favorite part of our visit was, and you said it was when you got to pick out a pumpkin.
You are the perfect picture of what autumn is me:
Getting to enjoy the beautiful colors outside with our family, after the mosquitos have all disappeared and before the bitter winter wind starts blowing.
As you are now only a few weeks away from your 12th birthday, I am definitely seeing signs of your maturing on an emotional level; more than ever before.
You are better embracing your role as protector and mentor, as an older brother; as opposed to seeing your sister as a threat to attention on you.
I can relate. I have grown this year as well.
I feel that this year for me has been the greatest amount of personal growth I have ever experienced; as I have learned who I actually am from an Enneagram perspective.
Similarly, I understand you better as well. And I think that, in turn, as helped you in your role as an older brother.
Published on April 8th, 2020, this was the first song I wrote because of The Covid Shutdown.
As an Enneagram 6, I am always preparing for what might go wrong. So you can imagine, it was important for me to mentally process never seeing members of my family again.
Specifically, this song was about me sorting out my feelings about my parents; who live about 3 hours away. Keep in mind, this was written at the beginning of The Covid Shutdown; before most people I knew actually starting getting Covid- and way before there was a vaccine available.
It is obviously the greatest understatement to tell your parents, “I don’t want you to die.”
So instead, I wrote this song about my life alongside them; not knowing what was ahead.
As you read the lyrics, notice the end of the song, where I officially switch over to the “Counterphobic 6” mindset:
If this is my final chance to say the things I haven’t yet – I would choose you every time if I could live a thousand lives – You loved me when I was young before I was who I’ve become – When this is all said and done, all I know is we had a good run – We had a good run – We had a good run, I don’t want to see the ending – We had a good run, I don’t want a new beginning – Hold on, hold on, hold on to me – I can’t let go, no – We had a good run – I’ll see you on other side, whatever Heaven ends up like – I’ll find you somewhere in that crowd, whatever we both look like now – And if we can remember back, back to all the years we had – We’ll pick up where things left off, all I know is we had a good run – We had a good run – I must have been built for the Apocalypse – I don’t feel anxious or too worried about this – I’d rather us all go at the exact same time – Than to be left behind and have to say goodbye
So looking back on this song I wrote over 2 years ago, can you see how I am a loyalist and a skeptic? Can you see my longing for security and confirmation of my own existence; which shows my true Enneagram is actually a 6?
Feel free to leave a comment. I’d love to hear your thoughts!
And now you can listen to the song, below, if you wish:
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