March 6, 2014
3 years, 3 months.
I assume there are certain milestones in life where a man must come to terms with the things he can not control. That’s how I feel right now.
This past week I decided to go back and watch the footage of the September 11th attacks. I was a 20 year-old in college back in 2001 and I haven’t watched footage of those events since then… in over a dozen years.
After watching a couple of documentaries on Netflix and YouTube this past week about that footage, I just didn’t know how to feel.
I was confused, paranoid, and disillusioned as I saw the events from a now enlightened perspective the second time around.
Finally, I understand the subtle message in John Mayer’s 2006 #1 hit, “Waiting On The World To Change”:
Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door
And when you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they want
It’s not that we don’t care,
We just know that the fight ain’t fair
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change
I am still sorting through all this, but I am coming to terms with it. You too will encounter moments like this in life.
You will realize there are complex problems in the world so much bigger than you are and that you have no control over them. You decide that maybe sometimes, the less you understand, the better.
I guess that’s where I am now.
You can only ask so many questions before you sometimes realize you may not want to know the answers.
As I remove my focus from why there are wars and terrorist attacks and so many innocent people involved in the process, I instead turn my thoughts to you and Mommy… in gratitude.
All I can do is be grateful for our family.
I could easily allow myself to be overwhelmed with life and death and the version of the news that is reported on TV, by both liberal and conservative networks, and all the fear and uncertainty that go with those things; or I can allow myself to live in simplicity… in a small, simple world.
What I can do is try to be the best father to you and the best husband to Mommy…
And as for the rest of the world, all I can do is try to be the best neighbor I know to be to each person I encounter.
Those are the things I will be accountable for at the end of my life when I answer to God; as I firmly believe we all will be someday.
Maybe somehow, that is simply how I do my part to help change the world.
When I read about Jesus, I never read about a man who was trying to be a political leader. Many of his followers wanted him to be, but instead, he was a man with a radical message of peace and hope, calling the people to bring the kingdom of Heaven to earth as opposed to continuing to raise hell on earth.
Of course, as the late comedian George Carlin pointed out, evidently people weren’t ready to hear a message about living in harmony and trying to love each other; because like Gandhi, Abraham Lincoln, Martin Luther King, Jr., and many other respected leaders of peace, Jesus was put to death.
I hope and literally pray that one day, enough of my generation, and yours, will see the other version of history that I’ve now been clued in to. Maybe then, I could stop waiting for the world to change.