Today during lunchtime, the parents were invited up for a special sort of pre-Thanksgiving at your school.
It’s interesting to see how your personality transforms when I show up to school to visit, as opposed to dropping you off or picking you off.
You got sort of giggly, yet quiet; like you were confused on how to act in front of both your teachers and me. You knew how to interact with your friends, but my presence was definitely throwing you off.
How do you balance your interaction with more than one role of authority between two different environments? I can imagine that sense of displacement.
After a few minutes once you had finished your lunch, you discovered what made you feel comfortable- sitting in my lap while I squeezed you tightly.
You didn’t want to talk or play; just let me hold you as we watched your friends interact with their parents.
Eventually, we started taking goofy pictures of ourselves. That really made you feel more like yourself.
After about 30 minutes or so before it was time for your nap and time for me to leave.
It’s funny because I’m the one to say the final good-night to you at home and it’s a pretty quick process.
But today at school, you kept asking me to hug you and kiss you again and again as I was leaving. That’s not typical of you.
I got to see this really, really sweet side of you that apparently is reserved for Mommy, I suppose.
Granted, you’re a sweet boy anyway. It’s just that usually I’m the one to play rough with you and I’m by default the main disciplinarian figure in your life.
Tonight as Mommy and I were putting you to bed, you told Mommy, “Today when Daddy left, I was sad… because Daddy had to go.”
Somewhat ironically, it makes me feel good that you were sad when I had to leave.
It’s confirmation that you know you can see me as a nurturer anytime you really need to. But as for most of the time, I am your fearless leader.