It took me most of the year writing my book to finally realize my actual Enneagram number is Nine. After I went back and rewrote my book accordingly, I celebrated by writing this song.
The point of view is me telling my wife that I now understand what she actually needs from me:
You never needed me to ever be by the book – You never needed me to ever give a frantic look – You only needed me to be your Enneagram 9 – You never needed me to take charge and be the boss – You never needed me to prophecy potential loss- You only needed me to be like I was in 2009 – Life got in the way there for a while – I repressed all my anger in a state of denial – Took a little time to thaw out – To reveal what was buried there underneath – When all I had to do was just show up, sit back, relax – That’s right – Just got to be chill and that will keep things from getting too real – You always saw me as your personal Paul Rudd – To shrug it off instead of feeling stuck in the mud – You only needed me to be your Enneagram 9 – You always saw me as your go with the flow – I never seemed bothered – If I was, it didn’t show – You only needed me to be like I was in 2009 – Don’t worry baby if the world’s gonna end – I’ll be your fellow passenger on this sinking ship – You only need me to be along for the ride